I’ve put my writing on the back burner recently and to be fair, life has been busy. Here’s a quick run down of my life for the past 8 months: went from full time youth pastor to part time youth pastor and part time server at Chili’s; had a baby; took two HUGE tests for ordination; got ordained; had four interviews for a new job; resigned from my jobs in NY (youth pastor and Chili’s); moved to Pittsburgh (with a 4 month old baby); was at a Youth camp 4 days after the move; spoke at the second half of that week of camp; jumped into my new job and then I rested on the 7th month…
This has been a whirlwind for my family. Albeit a GREAT whirlwind…yet a whirlwind none-the-less. Sadly, I’ve used this as an excuse for not writing. I haven’t worked on my manuscript honestly for almost 9 months now. I was content to say: “no publisher desires this now, I have no credibility” which is true…BUT who am I writing for anyways? Me? The “publisher” or God?
I’ve been inspired to start writing again. Living in the now, taking a hold of what God has gifted me to do, whether it gets published or not. My main goal in the past with writing was: “how can I get known by writing this” my new goal now is: “How can I 1. make Him know and 2. just write as God directs and leads”.
God has really been working on me. There are things he’s called me to that I haven’t done yet…and I need to. There are dreams he has for me that I haven’t yet grasped. I am overjoyed to be in this place of dependence. I know that sounds weird or cliche…maybe even fake but trust me, it’s not.
I know I’m living in my calling, doing what he has made me for, but I still need Him every moment of every day. Without His Voice, His Spirit guiding me, I’m just a fool doing foolish things (no matter how cool they may seem, they are foolish without Him). This thought has been ever present within me, yet I’ve tried to do so many things on my own…
Writing is something I love, it’s something that God has written deep inside of me to do, so I will write. No longer making excuses, no longer ignoring my story.
I love it when books rip you up, make you think and challenge you with God’s challenges!